No, You Will Never Have To Bear All This
This happened on a severe cold and fearful night on the 26th of November’2003 when she was going through the most painful process of giving birth to live while facing death. She was just 18 years old with a male nutrient body and the tender heart of 8 years old child. She was supposed to deliver her first baby at home by the hand of a midwife. In a divested village with no proper Health care, her life was put at risk by her mother, her brother, her husband, and the Midwife.
“What if I would have told them that I was going to give birth to a male child?”
Looking at the merciless faces of the people around her she thought for a while. The torturous pain was now at its extreme. She was feeling the worst gas pains she could ever imagine and the most anguishing part of it was being treated like a sheep or goat giving birth to her kids, rolling on the ground, yelling for mercy. . She felt like her lower body is going to explode or basically split open and she will die in a while. She was no more afraid of death in fact she wanted to die soon so that this all comes to an end.
“I don’t want to stay here” She looked at the ceiling, tears rolled down on her cheeks and she started talking to the One who was always beside her. The pain was now horrible. She could hear the midwife saying “push it harder”. She was extremely tired. Her body was sweating in the extreme cold. At last, it happened, she screamed Allah, her scream was louder than her pain, her helplessness, her insult, her loneliness, and all that she was going through.
She was blessed with a beautiful and healthy daughter. It was an amazing feeling for her to see her own child, to hold her in her arms, and to feel her presence. But she was the only one to welcome her daughter happily. Her husband was crying outside the room because he wanted a son. Her mother wrapped the baby girl in a cloth, handed over the girl to her, and went back to her home leaving her alone. The midwife collected her plastic sheet on which she was laid to give birth to her daughter. She got a deep cut while delivering the baby. The midwife did not know how to stitch. She handed over a prewritten prescription, received her fee, and went away.
There was dead silence in the room now. A girl was born. On the very first day of her life, she was told that she is not that important. An innocent soul did not know where she was sent by her destiny. Her father could take her mom to the hospital but he preferred to let his wife die as he was no more interested in his wife and her baby. The little girl’s birth was considered a crime and she was being cursed immediately after her birth. The first line said by her maternal grandmother was “close your eyes forever and never wake up again “
With the trembling hands, extremely weak body but with a firm belief in her she took her daughter, kept her in her lap, looked at her, and said “No, you will never have to bear all this”. She felt the little girl has filled her body with tremendous strength. Her eyes were shining with hope. She had an iron will now. The painful process of her delivery, the harshness of the behavior of her so-called relatives, and the new responsibility of her innocent daughter changed her completely. She mustered up the courage, without holding someone’s hand she managed to walk to the washroom to take a bath, change her dress and start her day. It was terribly painful to walk with a fresh deep wound but she did not stop herself. She wanted to learn from this pain. She wanted to remind herself that she is now the mother of a baby girl and she needs to be the strongest female to protect her daughter. And she continued.
